Saturday, November 7, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
We always had this plan to do a road trip and after thinking too much about it, I have decided that I am going to go. So I´m set. I am flying to L.A in the first week of September for two weeks.
I want to go out into the desert and visit some of the amazing sights. Monument Valley and Zion National Park are high on my list. I´ve been to the States before and although I didn´t really think much of the place before I went , I soon began to love it. The scenery is amazing.
On another note, my long time unrequented love called me on Skype the other day just for a chat and although I am very happy in my current relationship, I couldn´t help but feel an old fire stirring.
I let how I felt slip the last time we spoke and that was met with awkwardness.
We never had, or will have a relationship ,so how can it have that effect?
How can I , who have convinced myself that I have come so far, be instantly brought back to where I was before?
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
This winter and the rain it brings are exactly what Australia hungers for at the moment and although it is cold and my teeth do chatter, I don´t mind that much.
This month is my semester break and I am taking the opportunity to work everyday I can. I am saving my money for an overseas adventure at the end of the year. Latin America, particularly Chile, Peru ,Bolivia and Argentina are high on the agenda and I just need to get some pesos together.
On the story front, two of the short stories I had finished were met with praise from my friends who also write. They said I need to fix a few things here and there. I should have been happy with this, but alas I am not. Perfectionism for me is somewhat of a vice and the idea of rewriting sections and editing do not sit very well. I think it is a lesson that I will need to learn..
I´ll add it to a growing list.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Late Sunday night my friend offered to give me a lift to the train station.
We had spent the whole weekend catching up and he gave me a lot of good advice - advice that I had probably ignored too long to be honest. It was the kind of advice that once your hear it, it echoes throughout your mind for weeks on end, bumping and reverberating until finally it settles.
Friday, May 1, 2009
My policy towards Facebook has bent and swayed from time to time but today I have come to the realisation that I, do in fact , detest it.
It´s vapid and showy.
Then , on a second thought realised that it was indeed a lot of my ´friends´that I don´t like on facebook or in the real world.
People have moved on and changed, or they haven´t . Either way I want to cut some of the ties that have binded me to them.
I have started a part time job while I studying and I am going out for the first time for dinner with my co workers. I am looking forward to the idea of meeting new people and developing a new set of friends.
This last year has been a simple but constant repitition of a theme - start, finish, end and new.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Turning to each other, they realised what a dangerous combination they were.
I should be doing my assignments. This I know, but to be honest, I am not finding this degree particularly interesting.
Welcome to my very theoritical Masters. Sometimes I wonder if anyone has actually worked in the field at all. Soon I must write a research proposal. My Masters is not actually research based and this research task will never actually be researched. But it makes one of my lecturers feel a bit important. So why not? Bang it into the compulsory subjects list.
Maybe I should drop out.I had thought about it, but seeing as I have already invested the money into it and I know that a nice, shiny new Masters from this University will go along way in my area - it is just a matter of plouging through it.
In class , I look around and see the foreign students who are , for the most part, paying a fortune for this course. The smell of easy money wafts down the faculty corridors.
This degree and others, it seems have been plastered together in an animate form to create what can only be described as a cash cow and is the University milking it!
All this aside - life goes on. I am now working and I love it.
The relationship grows and strengthens as it takes its course. Around it all , for me at least, it this newly acquired sense of vulnerablity. This is a first for me. Being in control has always been my goal and now to let it slide a little from my hands and meet someone elses in the middle, is a strange sensation.
We are different people. Completely different. Reflecting on this , it is an exciting challenge, but it is also an obstacle of sorts.
Oh well, let´s see..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I moved to a new city. I am living there now.
Below this apartment, the traffic roars.
I met someone amazing. I´m not going to add more.
I am pinching myself to see if this is really real now.
Once again it is the famine or the feast. Out of the blue all of these things have come together. This pattern seems to repeat itself with regular occurance in my life.
It rained the other day. The first time it has rained since I have been back in Australia. Months. I missed it a lot.
Sitting in a quiet pub in suburban Dublin talking to my friends and telling them how as a child I used to get excited by the prospect of it raining, I would watch my friend´s amazement. It rained nearly every day while I lived in Dublin. It´s taken for granted. But this week, like an enthused child, I lay out on a inner city balcony , back against the wall and legs in the rain - just like I did as a youngster and it felt just as good.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
It seems perspective can be as much of a hinderance as it is a gift and although some people may ask for your advice, they really don´t want to hear it. Maybe it is just that as we get older things seem a bit more complex now. I don´t know.
I would like to think that because I have missed out on the goingons I could play a role to help mend some fences.
Friday, January 2, 2009
a card to be played.
A hope to be stayed,
a dream delayed.
Christmas was great. My family loved the suprised. I was exhausted.
Stay or go?
Friends are in good spirits. The nights out have been entertaining.
Stay or go?
A job opporunity on the horizon and an old friend set to visit.
Stay or go?
I miss speaking Spanish already, not to mention the tapas.
Stay or go?
A friend of mine from Spain now lives in Peru. It would be kind of cool to visit.
Stay or go?